Discovering The Scar Free Foundation
I picked up my pen and I cried
My hand was shaking
My chest felt heavy my body felt numb
A container load of rocks pressing my chest I feel
The anxiety worry guilt
Why am I so weak I ask myself?
The sadness for my child many would never understand
I know for sure, scar free family will always
I said to my self be brave- you were brave all these years
I don’t have visible scars
They are my hidden scars
Hiding in my head and in my heart
Here I write my story
My daughter my first born she was so beautiful
She was very precious to me and still is
1989 just a day before her first birthday
The fateful day a hot cup of tea on her chest
That is the day my whole world changed
I carried my precious girl from hospital
With skin grafts on her chest and scars she never had
I carry the guilt of not looking after her and keeping her safe
I carry the heartache making her grow up with scars
I carry the pain there was no treatment to reverse her scars
I hid my tears when people stared at her
I wiped my tears secretly when other girls wore beautiful dresses
I wished and prayed for a miracle
Anything to take scars away
I saw the pain in her eyes and I was helpless to help her
I could not fall as I had to be strong for her
She tried the expander and it failed
She has worse scars now
My heart ache immense
I had dreams of her walking through my front door
with flattened invisible scars
It is only a dream hope one day come true
Not for my pleasure but for my pretty girl
Acceptance is great but why not try diminish too
I do not want this to happen to any other mother
My scars are invisible unlike the rest in
The Scar Free Family
One would wonder ‘Why is she in this group. She has no scars?’
My pain my heartache there is no difference
Scars visible or invisible
I am her mother -She is my beautiful girl
I joined Scar Free Foundation I am glad I made that call
I yearn to help you Scar free foundation in every possible way I can
I pray for new discoveries to diminish and banish scars
A hope and a dream of any parent
Something that I did not have
I put my pen down this is my last line
My courage my bravado drained off my soul
I wipe my tears again as I always did
Secretly